Portulaca: in meMOOry

i found this picture and i thought i would share it with you ….. i think she is showing her grand son… evening lily… that i don’t have electric on the fence?…i  feel truly blessed to have had her in my life..i want to share with you my reflections,,,,,,,,,,as you gave me this gift,,,a gift of life that would forever be a part of my very being………here goes———— it is called: my flower my friend——–you tought me many lessons…. you brought me joy and peace and most importantly…understanding…….you communicated with  me on a sublingual level…and, through this communication……together we came to a true understanding of each other and of life and in the end…… death..many times we had together……….many moments….it seemed as though…. only We shared……many times our questions went unanswered and many other times we never asked…….your life seemed simple and mine…. complex…. yet, they were really the same…..we both shared the need for survival in a ever so changing and complicated world… we are just a small part of a vast creation but, a part that is necessary and that makes the whole sum possible…we are a part of it and,…….it a part of us…both needing the other………………we both shared the same love for coyote thunder farm and knew this place was, in itself a magical mystical place that we were both destine to experience a true higher level of knowledge in…… we both knew something extraudinary was a miss……we accepted this and continued to live out our days together……………..i felt you silently slipping away……being brave in the face of your demise…..we knew ….this was life….we also knew it was in the hands of a higher entity…………… `i can still see your face and feel the concern of lovely and your beloved evening-lily ..on that..bitter cold night when you stood shivering and,…. i felt helpless…….i desperately asked you if you could just hold on a bit longer…”just until spring” i said………then, i reminded you of apples and sweet grasses….you reflected…………. you assured me it would be difficult…but, you  would try……..we both knew…….we both held on…for the sake of evening lily….for the sake of each other….then,………. on the first day of spring….we both knew…….. it was time…….the sun didn’t shine that day……the wind was strong….the apples were from the farm store….. “perhaps from trees of last fall” i told you……………….i smelled the sweetness of your breath as if smelling the first spring rain….i touched the white fury heart on your crown……as if for the first time……then,i felt the warmth of your sole and at the same time….. the connection to the universe that we both shared……..i knew …. how connected we really are….to each other……to this earth and ultimately…..to this universe……… as i held you in my arms for the last time…….. and, felt you rise into the heavens…..a feeling overcame me of….. pure bliss….something so powerful…..only to be explained as if……………………….perhaps…. a new star had been born in the heavens above……until we meet again…..my flower…..my friend……and, when i look to the heavens i know i will always see your face……..warmly,